Am I stupid? Or...

Do you familiar with one situation when you have to help your friend because he/she desperately needs your help and you cannot say a no-word about it? Especially when they are needs a financial aid and nobodies can help them now except you? To make it worst, you instantly agree to help them because you feel sorry about their condition and beside that, at that time you have spare money to lend it to them. What the worst things that can happen from this? Did you remember what words they had said about giving your money back ASAP when they already have the money to replace it? Do you just sit down calmly, believing that they will return it soon without the needs to asking them when they would return it? Now, what will you do when you are facing similar situation like that? I bet you will agree with me on how you will deal about it, right? Especially when we are in the same situation when we are still expects financial aids from our parents. I bet that you must say something like, “OK, I’ll help you. But remember, you must return it ASAP!” right? That is show how we are care about our friends condition and that is a good thing to do. But I will ask you this question, “ Do you believe that they will returns your money ASAP as they’re promises to you?” Well, welcome to the real world, friends:D You cannot expect them to keep up with your high standards anymore. You must be ready that sometimes (almost all…) they would be late to return it. What do you think that drives them to do that? Well, I think we can say a lot about it:D

One thing that I can remember since I took this job to replace my friend who is away until the end of July is I can easily feels sleepy for the entire morning until afternoon and it will continue until you are ready to going to bed at night. What a feeling! Oh yes, for your information, I’m doing newspaper delivery in this job:D I don’t know whether you’re familiar with this or not but that’s exactly what was happened to me for the past two weeks! Well, I’m really desperate to get a long good sleep after this is over:D

I am happy that she actually can cope with her “problem” or, am I wrong. Well, then you must tell me again after sometime. Remember the words,” …I’ll be you crying shoulder…?”:D Hope you’re alright there. I will hold my promise not to tell anyone else about this:D Ok, I will be around, you know how to reach me, right? Take care, ciao!

it's been so long since my last post :)

i think bono understand me :D, check this out:
I have climbed the highest mountains
I have run through the fields
Only to be with you
Only to be with you

I have run I have crawled
I have scaled these city walls
Only to be with you
But I still haven't found
What I'm looking for
But I still haven't found
What I'm looking for

I have kissed honey lips
Felt the healing in her fingertips
It burned like fire
This burning desire
I have spoke with the tongue of angels
I have held the hand of a devil
It was warm in the night
I was cold as a stone
But I still haven't found
What I'm looking for
But I still haven't found
What I'm looking for

I believe in the Kingdom Come
Then all the colors will bleed into one
But yes I'm still running.
You broke the bonds
You loosened the chains
You carried the cross
And my shame
And my shame
You know I believed it
But I still haven't found
What I'm looking for
But I still haven't found
What I'm looking for

i still haven't found what im looking for(the joshua tree:U2)
thx for everything :)

Stay around...

For last couple of days, my life is like a roller-coaster for me. Up and down, right to left, swing back and forth and so on. It happens because of new schedule for me every day. I need to wake up very early in the freezing and cold day, sometimes with strong wind and rains that feels like i'm living in the arctic! That's what I thought because after spend almost two year here, I'm still not get used to this kind of weather. If not because I'm already give my word to my friend to replace him while he is away, I'll not get up early to do this job even they'll say that you'll get a good money! But the show must go on, isn't it? After all, I think this job is not bad either. But I must say that in winter time, you will get a hard time to finish the every day delivery. And at the end of every days job I'll know how many address that I miss for that day, well, I think i'm getting better for this, although sometimes I made something unnecessary mistakes by not throwing the newspaper in the right place. And after that, Tom will yelled at me like, "Ria, you've missed again!" and similar words like that. By the way, I bet you must be wondering why they called me Ria - that's the shortest name they can call me easily without slips their tongue:D Well, what suppose I say to them about my other name? Made? well they must be thinking, made what? OK, any name is fine for me as long as they're not calling me, "hey kid" or "mmmm...What is your name again?" and so on. OK, that's about my new job. The other job, well, this one is a good job actually with an above average fee for this kind of job. For now, I think, theres no jobs available yet although I've heard that many big stores are preparing their sale for next season. Of course I'm already apply for jobs for the next week and I hope that I can heard the news about it soon. Lets see OK?

Well, I think I'll going no where for this holiday, not like others that already talking about going somewhere with a list of things-to-do or buy:D Beside that, I've no spare money to spend and I think It'll better for me to stay around here and also preparing my next semester. Time is running fast, my friend. They will never repeat again and at some point you will wondering why the time is like shrinking too fast? I will try to find some idea about what should I write next for my theses. Still have no idea or clue on what topic that I should discuss ro write:D Well, I need to think about soon before next semester's starts, right?

OK, I think on overall situation, I'll be OK here although there's less sleep time at time:D And for you, Nggra, I'm glad that finally you'll meet a new environment and also new friends. I bet you'll be OK. Good luck for your study, OK? It makes me thinking to finish my study soon and back to Indonesia:D Take care, ciao!

At last...

There are some reason why you cannot perform well while you're expecting a good result from what you've done. Maybe the biggest cause from all of these reason is there is not enough preparation to handle unexpected problems that might comes up. What do you think the next reason for this? I think, undermining the real problem that lies beneath it. Yeah, that's right. You will get caught in the middle of something if you don't know exactly what is the problem you are facing of. The similar situation happens to me for the last two or three days although the problem is not too serious. I didn't have enough preparation and undermining the situation that might be comes up in this kind of job, newspaper deliveries. I bet all of you must think that this is a piece of cake for me to do it. Well, I didn't say that. Anyway, I will get used to it and I think, I'll be ready to challenge it. There is no turning back now, I must do it. Wish I can do it better next time.

I must say that for the last couple of week, I didn't feel well with my body, something is missing. I know that this is because the weather that might be have the biggest effect on my body but also I think I didn't have enough time to rest at night. Well, you will know exactly the consequence from it, don't you? I need to rearrange my time then if I want to keep my health at a good condition. For your information, the temperature is never reach 20 degree Celcius for all time. That's bad isn't it? The good news is I cannot get up easily from my bed every morning, I want to stay longer:D

OK, lets face it. I didn't want to fail on this and I am sure that after some time, I'll be better. Other news is finally I can understand how to use voice facility in YIM although there is some glitch. I'm not sure where is the problems are but yes I can use it when I have chat session with Anggra:D You like it, don't you? Well, for the email, I hope tat I can send it to you ASAP, OK? I'm also need it soon:D

Hope that you're still here for me after all, I don't know when this is will last, but I hope that this is will last forever. Take care, ciao!

Why...???

I got the effect of continuous bad days that happens here. Get cold and cough and also headache for the last two days. What a mess! At first I don't think that I will get that easily but my body reacts differently. I think I will need a good rest to recover my condition as I need to finish the assignment quickly before its submission time. Hopefully that I can finish it quickly. Nothing special happens today as everything goes into normal rhythm although this morning something disgusting happens. I can't imagine why on earth he is doing that and pretend like there nothing happens? But never mind, it's over now and life is goes on.

Meanwhile, I'm still don't know how to handle that matter correctly. I don't think that it is correct nor it is wrong. I hope that in the end I can manage to make the right decision on this. Let's see what happen, OK? How about you? Everthing OK? I don't have any exciting news or story to tell at the moment, beside that, I'm still struggle to get the job done, maybe in the two or three weeks time, everything will finish and I can enjoy the winter time:D Take care, ciao!

Gloomy Days...

I thought that to finish something is much more difficult than to start doing it, isn't? Maybe you think that's not true but, that's what I feel now. I need to finish it. To me, this time is like walking through a snowy road, slippery yet difficult to maintain pace with other. I don't say that I'm already quitting my war here but sometimes it is difficult for me to stay on track. Hopefully I can finish it after all:D

Ok, this week is not a good week for me especially with the weather. I don't think that I can adapt very well with the weather at the moment but yeah, this condition dragging me down a little bit. I think I will face this condition more often after I started newspaper delivery job:D By the way, what do you think about this job, is it good? I think I still needs money not because I spend it unwisely but because I need it later. I'll tell you about this in other time:D

I think I'll stop for now. Need a good rest for tomorrow:D Hope you don't mind:D Tomorrow we'll see again, OK? Take care,ciao!

Not so...

Another cold and cloudy day, and also windy.This morning and I thought that it would be better if I just give up to wake up and continue to snuggle under my warm and smooth blanket all day:D But actually I cant complain about it, right? just enjoy the days before the real winter come. Well, that's only on your dream though:D The fact is, I had to wake up and prepare for the test which is not really going well after all. Too much reading, printing, everything that has -ing form at the end of that word...:D

Anyway, I can manage to finish almost half of it and of course I don't know whether it is correct or not, what do you think? I'll pass or not? lets see OK? Nothing special happen though except that this feeling again struck me without any notice and I think I made a stupid thing (or not?) that probably I cannot imagine what the effect it has to me? Good or bad news? Well, I don't want to think about it at the moment and I think it would be better for me not to think the result, the best thing I can do is just wait and see what will happen in the future, right?

I think today is not bad after all except for the freezing wind that struck mercilessly. And for your information, I even didn't wear thick jacket, what an idiot I am:D yeah right, I didn't check the weather news, that's the truth, I think tomorrow will be the same, and what a good news, rains! Good eh?

For you, sorry if I cannot stay with you longer last time, but I promise that this weekend we will. What do you think? OK, I think that's all for now, I think we can call it a day for now, right? see you then, ciao