A Reflection to myself...

It is true that as we are human beings, we may do something wrong sometimes. But it is also true that we’re able to change it into a better situation. So, if I reflect that with my current situation, I believe that this time I’ll do whatever silly and stupid things this time even choose not to do my project. But also I’m aware of the costs from it and therefore, after I take some times to reflects into whatever happens to me for the last couple of weeks or so, I want to change it into a better situation that will brings, hopefully, any realistic result from whatever I’ve been doing here for almost two years. Is it correct? I don’t want to be a perfect person that will achieve great things or be able to create something immense with great impacts, but I just want to give a meaningful raison d'être why I am here, why I am live, for whom and whatsoever that I might be. Damn, why can’t I see these things before? You a man with brains and abilities to do whatever you want…do you realize that? You’re lucky enough to achieve things until this point when someone, somewhere may not as lucky as you are. Wake up, stand up straight and reach your dreams, whatever it is. I bet you can and I believe if you already made up your mind nothing will blocks your way. Remember, whatever you think about you’re so helpless and lonely in this ferocious world…there’s always a reason why you’re here to become whatever you want to be…Riawan! You are not alone….

PS: Thanks for the encouraging words…En!

Happy birthday

Birthdays should be a special time as everyone should know.
It means living another year, another year to grow.
Birthday should be a special time for each to then reflect,
on the past and on the present and what the future might expect.
Birthdays should be a special time for Pande Made Riawan Suarjaya to start anew,
setting goals and working to make each and every dream come true.
Happy birthday :)

Go, Go, Go...!

Nothing is more distressing than have no money in the pocket and lost keys that will upsetting your life. It's happens to me right now. Always ring the neighbor every time I want to enter the apartment leave a spite that I have to accept although they never mind to open the door as long as they are at home and knew who we are. Well, the cost for that key is not cheap and although usually we know that to made that kind of keys here cost us less than twenty bucks, the real cost is in the license itself. More than hundreds dollars, eww...Just for one key and not a typical door key, it is a security key will the special numbers on it and a license, a ridiculous-damn-fucking license! And it just one key for three of us, can you imagine that? We have to find another new way to put that key again so it'll not lose again. Anyway, we have to deal with it and maybe in the next few days we'll get the new key and soon our life will back into normal cycle again:D

As usual, the progress of my project is always slow and with other tasks came into my way, it brings a mind-numbing to me for the last three or four days. Make me feels like I need a vacation again and it make me starts thinking...I have no money either, what the f...? But still this situation brings a happy situation to me, I don't have to go outside doing nothing important and always stay at home, warm, full of food (although have to cook for myself) and sleepy head...:D But the submission date is coming fast for this subject. Friday, 2000-3000 words and 30% of total mark! ew...Come on...move, move, move....quick! Ok, take care everybody, see you in a better situation...( for me of course..:D), ciao!

I've pass it.....Damn!

Damn...Finally, one thing that I've been waiting for for some time has become a reality. I pass that subject with good score:D....and I dont think that I'll repeat or follow the online lecture or submits the assignment anymore...ever! Or, maybe I should check it first with the coordinator? Anyway, glad that the result is beyond what I've expected...and I'm very happy with that. One pressure on my shoulder has been lifted and I feel that I can put all my energy back into my project:D Again....

Ok, that's all I want to say for now, for all of you who care about me...take care, ciao!

It's because of....

Do you still thinking about some sweet memories that you ever have with someone from your past that you care, love and think a lot of long time ago? Do you still have a strong desire to repeat it? What would you do to then? Make a phone call to surprise him/her or send a romantic cards tells that you still thinking of him/her? Well, let's see it from different point of view. Do you think that they still thinking about you? Or even worst, do you think that they still remember you? If you can find out the answer from those questions, prepare yourself my friend...never expect nice answers even when you know that it is clear that they still thinking or have some feeling about you. Confused isn't it? It's because of four letter word my friend...:D



Ok, yes...of course that I am also become a victim from that too but really I didn't want to discuss about it right now...not now:D Well, let's see what happen, Ok? Meanwhile I starts to make a progress in the project even it can't be said that it is take the pressure off from me. Still long way to go. See you in a better situation ok? Take care, ciao!

Time is running very slow...(maybe...)

I don't know exactly what happen in the last 2 days but it's like everything around me is running very slowly... work, home, school and also money...:D just little progress or nothing new! Well, not all actually, because I've receive one call yesterday about today's job at Bunnings :D and tomorrow they ask me to make phone call to them again about available possible jobs during following weeks. Although the money is good, but the way they treat their employer sometimes makes you feel bad because sometimes they didn't care about whatever problems the employer had! Damn....But, I'm in the need of cash anyway and soon, so I take it..:D

Ok, move to another story...nothing much happen for the last 2 or three days except that I feel that I didn't have any strong desire to write on my blog. I'm not saying that I want to quit, but I just feel that my feeling is little bit blue...everything seems like drag me down....:D But, I think tomorrow it'll change back to normal again. Ok, not much for today though, and for everybody who visiting my place, I must say thank you very much about your interest in my place and I'm sorry that for now I didn't repay your visit into my place as soon as possible but I will, I promise! Love you all, take care, ciao!

What do you think?

We're never know from where we'll learn about the greatness of friendships. Lots of unexpected ways leads us to know and learn about its greatness. Most of you must be agree that true friend are rare. But even from the person whose we never met, we can find it. Like my experience in the last two weeks, my new habit of blogwalking have found this place whose her writing attracts lots of pro's and con's among bloggers (perhaps...) including me:D It is open my eyes that even in the internet, we still can find a true meaning of friendship. We're friends not because who we are but because how we feel among others. How we care about one's problems and the spirit to help each other even when we just met. So, I think, it is up to us to use the best of it for our lives....:D (Oopss...don't judge over what I've said but look at the essence behind it...Ok? I'm not good at it actually...:D) And I must say that I'll back her over whatever she wrote in her blog because she got a spirit to seek the "real" her without doing stupid things. Keep on writing Lin...:D

Ok, enough for that and now...for my own problem:D What a busy week and time is running! I'll try to finish looking for materials for my project by the end of next week before advancing to the next step:D Hopefully...:D And also I wish all the plan that I've put on in Bali will work well...Ok, let's see over the next few weeks:D How about you En? I need to talk to you again about it, if it is ok. Take care, ok? See you, ciao!

Let's Celebrate...

Mmmm... It's been a while since I'm not sending any posts into my blog:D It is not because I have no mood to write, it just that I have no idea about what I'm going to write down and publish here. My mind is full of other thing that suddenly block my idea to write. Although I have a wonderful weekend last week, well... not a weekend actually because I spent about 2 days and 1 night here on last Wednesday and Thursday. That activity make my body especially my thigh is aching for almost 3 days after it because I've try the snowboard when it is obvious that I've no skill on that thing:D But it is worth every penny of it:D It's like my dream comes true...

Ok, let's go to another topic. Just a little progress that I've made on my project. Since the information that I've gathered is not enough yet, I've to search for another and hopefully in the next two weeks I can make it. Let's hope for the best, right? Happy to hear that one of my close friend's father is having his birthday. Is it not too late to give my congratulation to him, En? Ok, wish all the best for him and his family..Cheers:D

And also for myself, I will celebrate my own special day tomorrow and in the next 10 days after it. Wish all the best blessing us and our life..Cheers! See in in a better situation, take care. Ciao!

Something is impede me!

How's your feeling when something didn't fit your original thought? Well, quite annoying isn't it? Although it just a little plan for your big picture, but sometimes it will hinder your progress toward something you're after for! Maybe, that happens because you're not put a complete actions to make it happens or because something forcing it to make it impossible to you to get the result quickly. I think, many of you have the same experience like this, right? Well, now it is too late to regret it but we can do something about it to make it happen again, right? Keep trying and never ever give up:D (...I start sounds like an old man...mwuhahahaa....) Never mind! Anyway, let's just see what happen tomorrow and hope it is not a bad news again:D Well something comes out of my mind that whether I can make that topic into a full theses (or thesis? It looks the same to me:D ) Well, I must make a better check on the database so that it will not slows me down in the middle of the process...:D

Another thing, I think I must start looking for another job after all of this matter is settle down but still my priority is that one, I'm not going to sacrifice it with a couple of bucks, not this one! And you know what? I'll doing my old job although it just only for this weekend. Not bad after all:D

Ok, maybe I'll see you again in a better time and maybe I'll brings some interesting stories again. Take care, ciao!

What do you think about this?

When doing my blog-walk, I found this place from her blog...anyway, give it a try! I've been try it myself and voila....





What do you think?

My reading, What yours?...

You cannot be in two places at once.
Yet no matter where you find yourself,
you keep wondering whether you ought to be somewhere else.
Your attention is divided, your loyalty is torn and
you do not seem able to draw on your normal ability
to establish clear priority.
Yet you really will not make a wrong choice
no matter what you choose.
Unless you elect to keep seeing your goals
and objectives as mutually incompatible.
Look for the needs which are common to both
and you will soon be clear about where to go next.
For there are happy answers
to your most pressing and perplexing questions...

Mmmmm... That's sound almost true with my feeling right now....I wonder how they make a prediction like this. Interested?