Am I ready or not?...

Something that make me thinking about this is that they're already a step ahead of me about one thing. And that's makes me somehow think that what happen with me? What's wrong? Am I scared or not ready yet to move forward? Somehow they are affects me with their attractiveness that makes me somehow thinking that I am lucky enough to know them in such way that brings me some happy and sad moment together. And now, while watching them moves a step ahead of me, it creates an empty feeling inside me that I know it will needs a some time to heals from it. That's for sure! I cannot stay away from that facts!

I don't know what happen next, but ready or not, it's happen already and it keeps leave me behind whatever I do! I am not sad about this condition but what I want is that I can do something about it. To put me in the situation that help me decide what is the next step. This is already my future. Now, I'm in the future. Cannot step back again. May God help me with this. Take care everybody, ciao!

The best you ever had...in your life!

Is it our life now is the reflection from the past? What would you ask for if you have the chance to select what your life is in the future? Probably the best thing that you can do is asking to become the better person from what you are now. I cannot tell you why but I think that what we have now is the best thing that can happen in your life. For now. So, enjoy your life. Never regret on whatever happen and may the God bless you. Take care everyone, ciao!

Sad moment...

It's very difficult for me now to handle this by myself. It is not that I didn't want them to be here but it just that what I've should do to make the time they'll spend here is worthwhile. And that's difficult to be done especially with my situation right now. And I feels like that they think that everything will be OK once they've get here. They just want to come here. That's all. But it's not easy as its look though. Well then, I still have to confirm this to them anyway to see what they want. Let's see what happen, OK?

I am also feels sad that some of my friends will be leaving soon and I don't know when we'll see each other again. Well, parting is always a sad moment for friendships. Even if that just happen in short time. I know that we still can contact each other but something is missing. And that's makes me sad. Feels like that the time is running very fast and leave us standing behind them. I'll miss you guys. OK, may the time also make the reunion is possible. Take care everyone, ciao!

Going...going...gone!

After all, it's not good to keep waiting until the very last minute to do something, right? Well, that's not exactly what was happen to me lately, but yeah, some event has had to do with it. I cannot be there when it happens, mostly because right now I live here. Not there. I thought that with the time that I've got here, I still can manage to prepare something special for them but in reality, I keep on saying to myself that I've still got time, relax. Until it came. That makes me feel little bit sad when I cannot be there for them while when I need them, they're there for me. I think I will try to spend some time together with them when the time is possible later. That's for sure.

Other thing also happen here. I am back to live with the "normal" situation again this time. They're back. And of course, now with some "extra features" that makes the live is more interesting:D Just wait until it comes, I'm sure that more occurence will happens. Who knows, hehehehehehe. And to make it looks not so terrible, I've got parking fine this time, worth three hours work! Damn it. I've should know that from the first time. But, It's happen anyway. One day worth of work is gone succesfully:D Take care everybody, ciao!

Amazing...huh?

At last, one step in my life is completed. Of course I am happy with this. Although this kind of situation is already happen to me once, several years ago, believe me or not, this is also surprises me in a way that still I can reach this point. It happen because of my sense of stupidity that leads me to say blatantly that I want to further my knowledge through this way. Silly isn't it? I 'll tell you one secret (So, this is become a secret-no-more then..) and this is really from my point of view about this matter. Never crossed in my mind at that time that I am really want this. I just want to stops all the crap-talk that humming around me about my situation and suddenly when someone asking me about my plan, in just a short time, my reaction is that my tongue move uncontrollable by saying that little magic words which is shift everybody's mind into other topic's that, at that time, seems as a miracle if I can do this even if I want it very bad. And they become impressed by that.

You can imagine a situation where someone seems has no simple, bright idea about what he'll do next and suddenly, bumm, in a relative short time, he landed in this place that give him no time to think what thing strikes him and force him to just follow the specified path until it reach the finish line. And it works, really. I am impressed too:D Well, anyway, looks that I have to follow on this. I don't know what happen next. What I really want is that I can have something, something that I can count on when I am alone out there, really. It doesn't have to be big or special, but it has to give me a sign that I can depends on it, no matter what situation are. Lots of things needs to be done now, and I mean a lot:D Start from now, I think I need to carefully choose my next move. Sure, it doesn't mean that I cannot enjoy my leisure time but I am also needs to think several steps forward about my life. Let's see what happen, OK? Take care guys, ciao!

Something to think about...!

Around the corner I have
a friend,
In this great city
that has no end,
Yet the days go by
and weeks rush on,
And before I know
it, a year is gone.

And I never see my
old friends face,
For life is a swift
and terrible race,
He knows I like him
just as well,
As in the days when
I rang his bell.
And he rang mine if,
we were younger then,
And now we are busy,
tired men.

Tired of playing a
foolish game,
Tired of trying to
make a name.
"Tomorrow" I say! "I
will call on Jim"
"Just to show that
I'm thinking of him."

But tomorrow comes
and tomorrow goes,
And distance between
us grows and grows.
Around the corner!
yet miles away,
"Here's a telegram
sir" "Jim died today."
And that's what we
get and deserve in the
end.

Around the corner, a
vanished friend.
Remember to always say what you mean.
If you love
someone, tell them.
Don't be afraid to express yourself. Reach out and
tell someone what they mean to you. Because when
you decide that it
is the right time it might be too late.

Seize the day. Never have regrets. And most
importantly, stay
close to your friends and family, for they have
helped make you
the person that you are today.

Take care guys, ciao!

New commenting system installed

Just want to say that I've changed the old commenting system with a new one but it is also deleting (change?) all the old comments for each posting. I don't know how to make it appear again. Is anyone know howto do it? Sorry:D Thanks to Micko for his suggestion for this changes.

What the f... is this?...

What do you feel if there is something bothering you but you cannot do anything to fix it? What will you do if this will cause you feels irritating with everything around you? Well, don't tell me your answers yet because I am also feels much the same as your feeling about it. Not that I cannot deal with it but it just that make me didn't think clearly about the real problem ahead of me now. While I need to find something real answer about it, this feeling really bother me in some way, causing some uncomfortable feeling for the last of couple days. Pheww, I must get over with it now because it's useless. Really!

Ahead me now is some uncertain situation where I must take several quick actions if I don't want to get some problems at the end. I'm not sure what happen next but really I am looking forward for it now no matter what happen next. Let's see, OK? Take care guys, ciao!

You believe this?...

Summer is coming...

First day on summer has passes. Started with cloudy and windy day. This will gradually change though. Seems to me that usual situation will not change as planned but who knows? I did not say that I'm not happy with this but it seems to me that it will takes more times to solve it. And I am already decided to change this situation by starts looking for new place. It wont happen now but yeah, better takes a further step action rather than feel sorry about it later. Everyday now can be counted as a precious day where time is limited until they arrive again and starts to make anything possible again. And who knows about what happen next? Better that I'm ready for it from now on.

Lets say that another situation is also unclear for me now. I still have to make a confirmation as soon as possible to give me a clue when I want to make some arrangement before they arrive. This is little bit akward because it is my first time for them to make a visit since I arrive here. Looks to me that they'll insist to stay over my place again while it is still not clear whether I still stay or not. I'll see what happen next, OK? Take care everybody, ciao!