Special Day...

I think only a little bit people in our country know about Saraswati, am I right? Well, we're a Big Country with so many population and many religion so no wonder in particular area there are some special event that other people even do not know it is exist. I though just with this knowledge maybe we're can understand each other with more respect, something that missing in our social live recently. And today i'm celebrate it. Happy Saraswati to you all:D

Anyway, finally I can submit it although it's not too perfect, who knows this is perfect or not unless the lecturer, right? I think I am already follows the rules and nothing is left outside that or I miss something. That's the point. Still have two to come and one test for next week. Thanks for your support:D, you know who am I talking to:D Did you have a good time eh? Take care OK?

Just arrive from my friend house where the celebration is held, and something that's smells good arrive in my sensitive nose, mmmmmm.... This is gonna be a big feast tonight:D anyway lets see what happen tonight, OK? and for now I think I'll take a rest for awhile before start it again tonight. See you soon, ciao!

Still Struggling...

At last, I can submitted the assignment and also make a presentation session but with a minor problem, I cannot speak fluently! What a fuss! Still two to go and well, this time I think will be difficult, less than two days to finish it and little information. Still having a jaded feeling from this morning presentation makes me like an idiot person, know nothing to do, everything is blank on my mind! hope this is can blown away soon. I need to catch my memory again:D Wish me luck, dude!

OK. That's another problem. The other problem is that I have one thing that I cannot speak about it freely in front of them until this time. I'll tell you later about this. If you want to know about it, you have to wait until the time is right, I promise, i'll tell you everything about this:D

One thing that makes me little surprise about today is, some of my long distance friends are contacting me! Yeah, that's' right! I haven't heard the news from them for some time and suddenly they contact me and asking about my situation here, and for just a couple of minutes, can you imagine, they just wake me up just to ask me how I am doing here? and also they just hang up without any notice. Wow, that's great! Anyway I'm happy they're still remember me and I don't know about the others, hopefully they're still:D

Well, and for the other who I cannot mentioned here, just wait, your turn will come. And for her, I wonder what are she doing now? Like the new place and experience? MAybe, who knows but I hope the best for her:D Take care OK? See you later, ciao.

Relieve...

What happen if you are running out of time while you still have a huge amount of task on your schedule? Stress, angry? I'm sure you are. What else? Confuse? Well, that's should be:D But what happen if you finish some of that on schedule? You'll feel really happy and relieve, isn't it? Like some of the heavy weight on your shoulder have been lifted and you can breathe with ease again. That's what my feeling now although I still have a lot of assignment left to be done but at least I still manage to catch the schedule:D

Ok, that's the good news. The bad new is, although this is not really bad news, there's no food left in the fridge for tomorrow. That's true! Almost two weeks ago, together with my house-mate, we buy everything we need, packing up into fridge, and now, there's almost nothing left. We're too busy actually with our own business. Work, school, etc. Well, I didn't say that we're really don't care about our hungry stomach, but I think we're really don't have time to spare on going to market, that's all! Let's see until this weekend if I can sort of this thing out together with them,ok?

This day, I'm also too busy with regular stuff at school and due date! Yeah, right! I didn't really think that I can score a good mark on that although I'm really needed a good mark:D What do you expect with just three days of work on assignment? Distinction? No way, dude! You're lucky if you can escape with a good mark:D But that's our life isn't it? Trying to get a good score with less effort:D (just kidding...)

Ok, I think I will call it a day now, I need to take a good sleep tonight. Tomorrow is a bog day especially for me, hope I can make it. Wish me luck, ok? Nice to know that you are there where I can touch you easily. And for you, have a great day too over there,ok? See you,ciao!

Hard Day....

Almost 11 pm when I'm arrived at home today, what a hard and long day. But I'll get used to it:D Ok, today, well as you thought, I'm trying to finishing my assignment with, still something missing and that's the problem. I don't know what should I do with some my data, what a mess! But gradually, one of my friend told me in the easiest way to do it and hopefully I can finished today before submitted tomorrow. And for you who already thinking, what happen with me for the last couple of days, I must say I'm sorry because this happen out of my control. Well, I must admitted that, some of these accident was caused by myself, I let it happen until the last time! That's the reason.

Now, I must say that's this is not what the way how to do it in the future, not a chance! Must be serious and must be focus! I know for some reason that I cannot maintain my pace in keeping my daily activity works well but I hope that overall I can achieve something better than this. This is not what I expect from this level of life, isn't it? You know what, at this level, I am suppose to be at some kind of place that can give something with a meaning into my life. Well, again, I must admitted that at this point, I'm wrong again:D I think I must watch my next move then to avoid something like this happen in the future. I didn't say that I must be a perfect person, no one can achieve that, but I think I can make or achieve something to be proud of, at least to myself:D that's realistic I think. Hope I can make it.

Ok, let's talk another topic. Well, I must say, what do think about this place again? I don't think that this place will be the best that I can make, but for now I think, it's not bad at all, although I'm new at this area but maybe in the future I can make something better from this like others. Still a lot things to be done to achieve that, right? And for her, I think that she'll be alright and for that gathering, that's the good idea to open your world. Now is the time, just do it, don't worry about anything else, ok? I am happy to hear that too.

And for now, I'll just sit on the back line again, waiting for something to come:D Well, something good to come actually, but I don't know what:D Ok, I feel more relax today as some of the weight has been lifted from my back and hopefully I can finished by tomorrow. Ok, see you, ciao!

Little Progress...

Well, here I am again. Not achieve something new though:D. Okay, today I've learned some thing new related to my knowledge other than Civil Engineering that, in some ways, helping me to understand how to work with computer programs:D Understand? Well, you can see over what I've done here, and don't forget to look in the bottom of this page...try it:D

This day, I've made some progress in my assignment although it is not much, I hope that I can finish this part by tomorrow and continue to the other part, still have a lot to do and I hope that I can finished before next Tuesday or I am dead:D...hopefully not,ok? Wish me luck then...

And for her, how about her? Did she enjoy her first day in the new place? I hope so and I think she can make it, am I right 'Nggra?:D Take care ok?

Well, It's almost dawn now, and I hope I can see you again tomorrow in a better situation, ok? Ciao...

Will, Wit, Grit...

I don't know if you ever feel like what I feel today. If you open your eyes over what happens around you, I am sure that you will find that you are not the only person who have problems. That's true! Very often that we feel or thinking why this is happen to me, can I make it, or the worst, why on earth that I am the only one who gets into trouble, what about others? It's not fair! I'm sure that most of you feels like this when you faces a problem, am I right? Another feeling that I feel today is I feel comfortable even when I am facing a huge load of assignment for this week that I am supposed to finish it very soon! That's weird, isn't it? Ok, maybe you will say that's impossible. How come you ever not feeling pressure over that? Stress? Or even you will find that you are in the middle of something, something that brings you to another world where everything you have are meaningless? I must confess that of course I feels those feeling too. But this morning, I don't ever feeling and thinking about it. Well, not for long though:D Of course, no matter what, I must finish it, if don't, I'm a dead man walking:D Hope that it will not happen to me, ever.

I must say that there's another thing that happen to me today. One of my friend ( new friend actually:D...) will facing her big big big challenge in front of her ( I'm sure that you know exactly who is she, right?) That's what she said to me, well, if you are not sure, ask her again:D
I hope the best for her, I know exactly about the feeling that she had over what will happen next to her, well, not exactly but almost the same:D...And for her, I wish that she will reach her dream...:D good luck En

Well, one thing that I've learn from today is every thing will have its own way, you don't have to worry about it, in the end you will find that everything will be fine, no matter what you are doing, you will find a way to finish it as long as you have the wit and grit to do it and a strong will, that's for sure. Wish me luck bro':D
See you soon,ciao!

It was a quite hard rain yesterday, I was complaining about everything that day, about the rain, about the air conditioner (gosh! its like a sauna inside the car), about my lecturer haven’t sign my recommendation letter and all my unfinished things that day, about traffic jam, when I suddenly saw some boys still in their junior high uniforms playing in the hard rain and the jump into a truck in front of me. So happy, so free… people always find their way to be happy.I think it’s a very good method to heal people like us, always in a rush 24/7(are we?). Come out, play and let everything go.. even just for a moment, slow it down a bit. Enjoy the touch of raindrops on our face. Its healing I think. And look at them so happy makes me feel that what im complaining about is not that important anymore.
The weather is unpredictable these days, Im kinda sorry not to join the boys that day. When was the last time u play in the middle of the rain?

Keep going...

I don't know exactly what happen with me for the past couple of days but what I know exactly is that I haven't finished almost all of my assignment. That's the fact! Well, I hope that with a new energy with, of course, a little bit of luck I can finished it. Well nothing much to say that this is really put a heavy pressure to me where I cannot avoid at the end, in fact, I must face it and finish it anyway.

Nothing special happen to me for the last couple of days although some warming support from one of my friend is really help me through this situation. Thanks, I am really appreciate it En, hope you also can find something to do, or if you cannot find it, there's a lot thing to do here for you, want it? Keep that smile into your future...

Ok, I must admitted that I cannot find a reason for what happen to me as there is no point to find any excuse for this. What for? In the end there is no one to blame unless me if there's something happen to me, right? We'll see though:D

At least I can vented my feeling for the last couple of days, it's very hard to continue through this situation, hope I can finish it. I'll try to do my best:D

See you in the better situation,ciao!

Can I...?

This morning I woke up with a great feeling about trying to finish all my task, well not all actually, but just trying to reduce the overwhelmingly weight in my back:D Everthing is going well until mid-day when it starts to dragged me down, slowing me down as I'm trying to finish it. I know I musnt complaining about it, after all it's my fault, I admitted! Right now I'm just trying to find the best way to finished quickly as the time is running fast.Hopefully I can make it! I feel like I don't have any desire to talking too much now as my feeling is dragging me down...trying almost all day to cope with it, with a little progress. What a great way to finish my day...

Above all, I'm still have my affection to others too, can't you see what? Well, hope you can enjoy this:D feel free to make any comment:D and now, I need to give rest to my tired soul... to put forth a determined effort toward my unfinished war...wish me luck!

Friendships? What t...?

Have you ever feel that you are so lonely in this world? I'm not talking about we're having our parent, I'm talking about having friends. Is it true that we can get a real friend? Or it just a lingo that's everybody talking to impress others? Which one do you think is it true? I'm not pessimistic about this idea, let's take a few moment to really think, when is the last time we're feeling so lonely in this cruel and bitter world? I bet you are thinking more than once! If you see from others point of view, you know what, there's no point to feel sorry to ourselves when we having that unpleasant time. Nobody is really listen to you anyway:D Believe me! Until some point in our friendship's with others, there a time when we didn't need a friend at all. You guesses is right, we need our privacy! Yeah, nobody can argue that we can only depends to ourselves to solve our privacy problems, right? We can tell about almost anything to our friends but only us that can solve that kind of problems, get it?

Maybe for some reason we can argue about this, but hey, look at yourself, tell your friend about your problem, it just lessen your mental strain, nothing else. Actually we just need a positive feedback! Nothing wrong with that. Me, for instance also need that! I don't know what happen next if I don't fix this quickly, it feels like something missing here! I don't know what but I must find it fast! Got to be at the right track! I feel much better now just to thinking about this idea. Maybe I can make it happen, who knows?

Today, well, as you can guess, nothing special happens! Just a normal day passing trough its path and now, what? I'm just realize that now is a new day already, damn, I wonder, where's the time gone? Or just we spend it unwisely? Ok, let's face it, buddy:D

Now, for you, maybe there's something new for you to make it look better. I like this kind of idea, perhaps I can put some new design, color or even photos, what do you think? Let's see,ok? Take care buddy,ciao.

Be Organize...

It's almost a while since my last post, but that's not because I'm forget about it, it just that many things comes up together in the same time and makes me looks helpless, that's true! Here I am, with all my stuff and disorderly feeling, trying to get all things done as quickly as I can. Well, hope that this will not make my day getting worse:D.

What do you think about a promise? Do you often keep your promises and make the best of it to yourself and to others where you put your promises? Or just keep saying and forget it, pretend that it wont change anything at the end? Well, where side will you stand in now? It's not as easy as you think though. Like many things you do in your life, It will haunt you to wherever your steps takes you! It's like your shadows, no matter it is right or wrong, probably you will get something from it. A lesson, now or later. Yeah, you can say, that's not my problem, moron! But hey, try to take a careful look in everything you say and do to others, even to yourself, and keep it mind that sooner or later you will get something from it:D Believe me! I'm not trying to be a good person, I'm not a good person anyway, I just think that whatever you do or say, it has consequences... that's all. It's up to you now to make the best or the bad from it.

Like what happen to me now, I am trying to re-organize myself and what happen? Just a little improvement, not much though! I'm not blaming others for this, this all happen because of me, nothing to do with others. I need to resolve this quickly before my time is up. With fresh mind and strong will, nothing is impossible,hopefully:D. Needless to say, whatever you do with your life, it's your life! God, just now I realized that actually I am saying that, is this comes out from my mind or what? It makes no difference to me at all, at the moment perhaps! I'm on my own now. Well, at least I know where I standing now, isn't it? After all, this is not the only thing that makes someone become a perfect person, a lot of other things need to be learn and done before that happens to you! Let's see what happen next and I thinks I'll just sit and relax for a moment. Watch out pal, the next big thing is coming fast behind you, make a way!:D

To make my day look more brighter, there's a unexpected thing happens to me(if I can says like that). Nothing special though but that's makes me thingking that someone is really care about you in some way. There is nothing you can do about that anyway:D Is it correct?:D

Ok, maybe I'll wait and see until all of this mess is clear and for now I think I'll let you just like the way you are now, there's nothing I can do about it now, time is running fast:D Take care...ciao

u're right about the transparent wall, can see whats beyond but need a hard work to reach. hey..i study planning, knows enough about how to make goals, plan everything down to the last detail. its easy to make a plan, but its hard to implement it. i always make optimistic plans, i dont really think much about the result, just enjoy the process. sometime unexpected things happen during the process, it might beyond our controll, be prepared then. u were right again, its the best strategy.
so i say, enjoy the process! its the art of live.

The Truth...

You know why we are like know nothing when we are going to do something, feels like we face a transparents wall, we can see clearly anything beyond it yet difficult to reach what in the other side of the wall, is it that kind of feeling you experienced in this kind of situation? Maybe you feels the same as me or maybe you feels different than me, but that's not the matter. The point is that what are you gonna do with that to finish your goals? that's matter! It is hard, isnt it? Cannot look back again to seek the onus of that problem because time is running out. All you gonna do is give your best shot! point, click, bam! Maybe you will get your best shot or maybe you not. That's one thing that I'm sure of. Let see that's coming, ok?

One thing that surprise me is that we cannot predict what will happen to us even if we think of something that maybe happen to us time after time, maybe it happens maybe not! but be prepare, that's the best strategy:D and I think I got surprises today! can you guess it? I bet you can't:D Anyway that's happens to me today, it helps me in someway though, even when I think it is impossible at first, Should I must take this as the lesson from my mistakes I've done? Or just a beginner luck?:D But hey, I didnt want to think too far about it at the moment, let it happen naturally and enjoy every little part of it. Take it for granted, for this time only, never happen twice, that's life:D

For those who feels I'm kinda weird for being express it in this such way, well, you must accept it without any comment, come on guys, this is my turn now, can you see it? But hey, this is also my praises to you,you're my friends without exception! Please enjoy it as well,ok? Hope you have a good day:D

Last but not least, maybe I make some constructive action with this place, not much though, but better than nothing;) Hope I can make it better next time, ciao...

Hello hello.. check 1..2..3…
This is my first official post in our blog (or your blog? forgive my sense of belonging :D).
I open this morning with an MP3 file from incognito “Positivity” (J.P. Maunick), recognize the song?
here’s some:

It's early in the morning
The light outside is blinding
You don't want to know
You're so tired of complainin'
'Cos your nine to five ain't workin'
While your dreams just seem to grow and grow
Nothing's clear
It's so confusin'
Intuition's left you
There's no one left to turn to
Until you hear a voice within your heart
Telling you which way to go
*You have got to learn to please your mind
Positively
Tryin' to find a way to spend your time
In positivity
Spend the days here waiting
And all your nights in wishin'
Seasons come and go
As you sleep the tide is risin'
One by one your dreams are drownin'
While you stare and watch the waters flow
Back to *

Tetap semangat!!

Have a nice day, mate**
** way too Australia, plis de.. :D

Hello...I'm here again:D Well, today I think I got something to thank for again, friendships, yeah..that's true! I'm always thinking that I dont have any real friends for a long time. They always come and go. You can say that I have to live with that..yeah right,whatever! But I think we cannot live in loneliness, there's must a time where someone needs someone else,right? Whether they're happy or sad. But what happen when they're gone like smokes against the winds? That's really hurt isn't it? We must realise that that's could happen to us and for me, this time, I'm in the winning side:D That's relieves me for sure. There is no greater feeling than the feeling that we've got something to count for in this time. No matter what happen to us, there's always a friend next to us to listen our story, to laugh at our jokes, to cry at our sadness, to...almost everything we can imagine for in life.

That's is my serious part of story:D The happy one??? or you want the sadness side??? I'd rather to choose the happy side:D You know what happen today? I spent almost A$20 just for todays meal...yeah that's a lot of money. I can live for almost two weeks with that amount of money by myself. But hey, not today. I feel like I need a boost in my activity, although for your information only, I just spend a tenth from that to do my activity now:D What a feeling! I think I must walk on the track again after this to reach whatever I choose for this time! I dont want to loose again, not this time, not in this situation. Really need focusing my attention and energy on this, give me the strength!

And again, I think I made a stupid idea on this place, trying to make some changes in the way anything works around here and resulting in a dead end. What a mess! Well, I hope everything will be better next time, calm down, nothing wrong with trial and error unles you know what you're doing and hope for the best:D ok? Good Luck Bro!

helow ...
its me.... here i am spellbound and speachless

Mmmm...Today is almost over! Just like other day, no special event unless one news that makes me quite surprise. I dont know whether I can make it up again like the "old times" long time before I'm here. This bring a weird feeling to me, can I make it someday? Who knows...yeah, right! I dont know yet either. That's gives me some ridiculous feeling about what happen next. Should I keep it this way? Or should I speak out loud, let the others know about what I'm feeling inside my heart? or else...??? In fact, I felt that I can't keep it for my myself for too long, something must be done to remedy this.

Well, probably that's will become reality after I'm finish here. I need to know where is my position toward my destiny, can I keep in touch with my ambition or should I let it go? I'm not a selfish man, I need to know what I am and who I become, that's normal,right? There's no point if I withdraw from my fight before I know the truth about it, I cannot give up...I can't! not at this point. I need everything clear to help me decided my step toward my ambition without letting others down. Hope that this is will be happy ending...:D

And...for you, I thought that I will let you like this at the moment. I can't make it better this time, need more time and energy to do this. Sorry...I'll be happy to repay that to you...after i'm done with my duty, I give you my word! Keep in touch will you?...ciao

Well...another day is passing by again with only little success.There's still many things to do left and hopefully I can make it:D. There's a always a way out to everything if you have a strong will and sscintillating wit, that's will make a difference in the end. Nobody's perfect but, hey...didn't we all just like that? Pretend to be perfect but actually we're not. Hope I can see it all at the end and laughing at it:D who knows? ...and say" who's laughing now?". Better to do it anyway and I dont want to be left alone here just to see others passing me easily without a good fight like i used to, right? It wont harm me at all...:D Dont worry about that, there a lot thing to do ahead of me and still I want to achieve it, with or without others.

Ok, that's for today, and for this site? Hmmm, I think I need to make a further steps to shape it into a better look and maybe....maybe a lot of new fresh ideas will come up and works:D See ya mate....

New day...new experience...yeah, but let's see what happen, some new news...some new thoughts...maybe useful,maybe not....but hey,don't take it too seriously...mate:D Have a nice and happy day....