And now...

Something is happen. It is not that I am expecting this to happen onto me, but this is really unexpected! And I don't know the result from this occurence upon my life:D (Sounds like it's really important eh?). Actually it can happen to everybody at any time and at any place. I've lost something when I think that it'll never happen upon me (that's true...until now!) I cannot say aboutwhat was I'm thinking or feeling about this. Puzzled mind or low self-esteem are just some of the feeling I've had after this happen. Not because that I cannot do something about this but because that this is happen right here. In place where I live now, where news about me is not too important for people to care about (:D just kidding...). No, that's not what I meant. The point is what happen next after this onto me. And that's is something that I cannot think about right now. Not now, perhaps later.

There's so much plan in my head yet so little time and resources available to make it happen. Who knows about it. Make it becomes reality is already the biggest avhievement for me, especially in this hectic situation. Let's hope tat everything will runs as the plan. We'll see about it later, OK? take care everyone,ciao!

So...confusing!!!

Let just say that I'm not happy with this situation right now. Something bother me and I cannot sure which one. Of course that I know already what problems that happen lately but that it's not enough to draw the conclusion that it was the source for this situation occurs. Still, there are some other things that makes me feel angry and helpless about this situation but I cannot find the right solution for it. If I compare my life before I finish my project and now, I can say that although at that time when I still work on my project, I have been under constant pressure over many things, still I can manage to solve it. I am happy with it because I know what was the target and the consequences of it if I cannot finish it on time. But now, I feel like I was searching a needle under the heap of straw. That's not an easy task though!! phew...And also I don't know where this is will heading too.

Anyway, I don't want to think about this now. There's other thing to think about, too. I want to wait and see for a couple of days until everything is clear. Beside that to make an important decision, It takes time, too. OK, take care everyone, ciao!

Why???......

Got pretty tired because of what I did in last couple of days but its nothing compared with something that might comes up later. I still don't understand why someone's good deed is being deliberately misused? Did he doesn't have a heart all all? I don't say that I am a good person too, I don't care about whatever people say about me, but still I have sensitivity over someone's circumtances. If I stick to my guts feeling, I will not take this calmly. But still I have a limit, too. I cannot let this happen over and over again. Not like this.


Need to give him a lesson too, so he will not take this lightly anymore. I'll make a move anyway. Whatever happen, I'll not regret it. This will make everybody know and understand that they cannot take an action without accepting its consequences. For those people, I swear that they'll be sorry if they want to make a mess with me! Take care everyone, ciao!

Hmmm...What's Next?

Start to rev up my body and my mind again, although it's not completely successful. Well, sort of...:D Maybe in next few days, I can get a clear view about what I am going to do next after this and this time, for sure. Want to make a phone call to someone, but I think I'll wait 'til everything is clear. She'll be there anyway but I'm not sure whether this news will change the situation between us in the future.

For now maybe I'll think over what I'm going to do to spend the time now. Few things needs to be settle up first. Ok, I guess that I can call it a day now, take care everyone, ciao!

Is this the end? Or....

Pheewww....I must say that I am very relieve to feel that all (almost actually...*with devilish grin*) my weight is just like being lift up from my shoulder. I'm not too happy nor too sad. I don't know exactly what happen. Little bit blank of everything. There is no joy feeling like used to be. I didn't say that I am not happy with this condition, but I just want to say that actually this is just the beginning of my real life. Yeahhh...of course that I am happy to reach until this point in my life wether for some people, reaching this point is like if you're already in heaven!!! Sound like I'm a little bit too sarcastic, isn't it? Well, whatever...so be it.

I need to think again about what I am going to do after this. Scheduling my life into a whole new game of life (maybe...) and think like I'll make the best shot I've ever made. Just give me a little more time to enjoy this for now. If I stand from this point, everything in front of me looks different, its not the same like it used to and brings a new feeling for me.

Anyway, hope that the result I hope for from this will be good. Good news actually good but it will be better if I knew how I am going to deal with it. For now, my head is blank......whooaaaa:D Take care everyone, ciao!

Duuuu..duuuu...duuuu....!!!

It's almost came...
Can I make it?
Or....
Well, It came to me anyway...
No worries, mate!

Take care everyone, ciao!